“I Need to” vs. “God Is”
When it comes to the Christian life, our minds can be filled
with a myriad of “I need to” thoughts: “I need to pray more,” “I need to spend
more quality time with the Lord,” “I need to grow in loving my neighbor as
myself,” and so on. In many cases, this tendency can be a sign of something Scripture
warns us against: thinking that we are saved by works and not faith.
Saving faith isn’t anything we do. It is accepting God’s
work on our behalf. Saving faith is a gift from God so that no one can boast
(Eph. 2:8-9).
We may say we believe that saving faith is not a work, and
that we are not saved by our works, but our inner monologue—filled with “I need
to” statements—may reveal a heart that easily turns the walk of faith into a
work of human effort. When we treat Christianity as moralism, we reduce it to a
means by which we feel good—or bad—about ourselves based on our performance.
The good works performed by the Christian reveal the fruit of Christianity—not the root of Christianity. We work because we
are saved, not in order to be saved. Confusing the fruit and the root is
spiritual suicide.
Noticing this tendency in myself, I’m praying that God will
help me replace my “I need to” thoughts with “God is” thoughts. Knowing God is
what truly makes us more like Him. For example, after reading through an Old
Testament story such as Daniel’s three friends and the fiery furnace, I
shouldn’t jump to the question, “What does this story tell me about what I need
to do?” The more important question is, “What does this story tell me about
God?” After all, if I am going to have a faith as unshakable as that of
Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego, I will need to have a firm grasp on how
unshakably powerful God is. In fact, that is exactly what gave teeth to these
young Israelites’ faith—they had a firm conviction about who God was (Daniel
3:17ff).
Do I want to love other people more? Only as I see God’s
love for me more clearly will I be able to genuinely display that love toward
others. (Otherwise, I’ll try to muster up something that Scripture says only
God can give me through His Spirit.) Do I want to spend more time with the Lord
each day? Only as I see the beauty of God’s holiness more clearly will I be
able to seek His face more earnestly. (Otherwise, I’ll treat my communion with
God as a duty and not a delight—and that doesn’t really glorify God or benefit
me.) If I can look beneath the surface of the “I need to” statements, I will
better discern the fruit from the root.